Goodbye for Now

Goodbye for Now

The trouble with existing
Is that you have to say goodbye
You take your path, I took mine
Now it’s no longer you and I.
We had our fun along the way
Till death held up my number
Think of me just lying down
In an everlasting slumber.
Memories will come and go
As life continues on
I’ll wait for you on up the road
Until your day is done.
Even though I’ve said goodbye
Doesn’t mean I love you less
And your loving me just showed me
What life is at its best.
Imagine that I’m with you now
My arms around you tight
When you close your eyes and dream of me
We’ll be together every night
So goodbye for now, we’ll meet again
I can’t say where or even when
But I love you now and know I’ll love you then.

© Sinead Hamill

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Berkeley

Dedicated to all those who died or were injured in the balcony tragedy in California.

Berkeley
The light of life blacked out too early
Loved by all they’ve ever known
No fault of theirs despite what some said
Young minds gone before they’d grown

Six were lost and others altered
Things will never be the same
Families tortured while they drown in tears
Their children not the ones to blame

They went to Berkeley Californ..I.A
They were supposed to love their stay
It ended as a tragic nightmare
It wasn’t meant to be this way

They took their first steps into adulthood
Branching out they travelled far
Some friends they had are gone forever
Others living with the scars

Just twenty one, the years before them
World at their feet, they had it all
They travelled over full of hopes and dreams
All that shattered by the fall.

© Sinead Hamill

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Smile

Smile

Quintessential happiness is all I ask for me
This is how I find it, with steps from one to three.
Hook your cheeks behind your ears, don’t make life a trial,
Turn those lips skyward and smile!
Smile and life is good
Smile, let go dead wood
Smile, make it your mark,
Smile, release your spark
Pick up and old diary to see how far you’ve come
Chat to random strangers if they’re looking glum
Forget about recording stuff, life is there, go live it
Take a hug from anyone and smile!
Little robins in the trees, the leaves that rustle in the breeze
Coloured seashells on the shore, twisting seabirds dive once more
Sunlight shining through the mist, the feeling of a special kiss
Think of all the good things and smile!
Smile, laugh, love, hug
Make utter joy your only drug
The sad mouth turned upside down
Pretty soon forgets to frown
Try it out, see if I’m right
Soon bad moods are out of sight
You’ve only got one life to live so Smile!

© Sinead Hamill

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All Gone

All Gone

Little baby on the inside
Growing bigger day by day
I felt your movements by the second
But then I learned you couldn’t stay
Incompatible with life they called it
That broke my heart to hear those words
A future lies ahead but not for you
The path of life is so absurd
“All gone”, the words you’ll never say
All gone, the path of life you’ll never see
You’re all gone
I cried a waterfall throughout your time here
From tears of joy to those of pain
Your perfect features as you lay there
Life will never by the same
I don’t know if there’s a heaven
Or if your spirit’s flying free
All I ask is that you linger
And till my time comes, wait for me.
“All gone”, the words you’ll never say
All gone, the path of life you’ll never see
You’re all gone

© Sinead Hamill

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Down Days

Down days

Do you ever wonder what it’s all for,
Or even question why you’re here?
The days your mind is tortured
The path before you so unclear.
Good luck a foreign concept
Like swallows flying straight in May,
No-one answers on the telephone
The nights you fail to see the way.
Your dreams around you shattered
Torn apart by those less kind
You wonder if it matters
As you slowly lose your mind.

On those down days fight the demons
Point to the door and tell them go
They might destroy you if you let them
You’ve got the strength to tell them no!

And what about tomorrow
When clouds have lifted and there’s sun
Will you wake up feeling sad and lost?
Or will you take the chance and run
Don’t look around for validation
All you need is deep inside
You’re a miracle of wonder
So throw those curtains open wide.
Rid yourself of poison people
The faceless friends behind a screen
Whose eyes avoid you when you need them
When you’re so sad you want to scream
Your best friend is in the mirror
Longing just to reconnect
You’ve known each other for a long time
So show each other some respect

© Sinead Hamill

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I’m Still Me – (Inspired by a friend’s child who just told her family she was gay)

I’m Still Me

Didn’t you love me yesterday
With everything the same?
I’ve brought you questions and confusion
But I’ll never bring you shame
As a child you gave me choices
Looked to the sky and told me “grow”
But your dreams for me were not mine
That’s why I need you now to know

For the first time I feel normal
For the first time I am free
The world around us changing but
I’m still your baby, I’m still me.

As an infant how you held me
Counted fingers one to ten
The love I seek is not what you want
But I’m the same as I was then.
The fear I felt in being honest
To tell you of my pain
A life so long lived through a lie
Through all of that, I’m still the same.

People talk about acceptance
But wonder all the same
Little minds they talk on corners
Pointing fingers, who to blame?
You held my hand on my first steps
mopped the fevers, washed my knee
I need you now more than ever
To tell the world that you love me.
Because
For the first time I feel normal
For the first time I feel free
The world around us changing
I’m still your baby, I’m still me.

© Sinead Hamill

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The Wife

The Wife

My fella he once called to me
He says to me C’mere
I walked over quite seductively
And clipped him round the ear
Don’t be talking down to ME
Like I’m some sort of hound
Or you’ll be digging with your fingertips
From six feet underground

That bloke, where ever did he come from
And is he going back?
Every word he utters
He’s only asking for a smack
“Have you seen my bleedin’ underpants?”
he calls out in a roar
No I fecking haven’t
Why not check the poxy drawer?

See he believes in evolution
Not in Adam and the Mot
When he strips his dirty underwear
And leaves them rooted to the spot
He thinks they’ll form a chrysalis
And sprout a pair of wings
Cos that’s the only way those kacks
Will make the fecking laundry bin.

I’m a modern type of woman me,
The type that goes on strike
If he takes me for granted
He’ll get his head put on a spike
Don’t get me started on the cooking
It’s like rocket science to him
I leave him with ingredients
The instructions on the tin
I’ve hardly left the shagging driveway
When my mobile starts to ring
“Should I take the plastic off the chicken before I put it in?”

It’s a wonder he’s survived this long
Since stepping from the cave
When he asked me “will you be my wife?”
What he meant was “be my slave”.

I’ve hatched a plan, I bought the axe
I’ve thought the whole thing through
He’s going underneath the apple tree
While I bring in someone new.

© Sinead Hamill

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